So. Here we are. 2 days before departure, and I can't even begin to explain what has happened in these past four months. It would be a flat out lie to say I am the same person who landed here four months ago. So, now, I would like to take the time and attempt to explain to you the Kenny who is now leaving Barcelona, and why he's changed.
1) Independence. Not the kind of
independence that you get from going away to college. I'm talking
next level stuff here. Never before had I thought that at the age of
20, I would be booking my own flights, navigating through foreign and
strange cities, cooking my own meals, balancing my own finances, and
all the while, by some miracle, keeping up my health. It's a real
strange feeling, but the Kenny getting on this plane back to New York
doesn't need his parents to survive (finances aside). And when you
truly hit that point, when you know that you can make it as a citizen
of the world, its a fascinating feeling. And the only thing I can
attribute this to is the whole study abroad experience.
2) Self Reflection. This one's a bit
tricky. But to ignore it would be a mistake. Since my time here I
have learned an infinite amount of knowledge about who I am and who I
want to be. Exposing myself to different situations, different
people, and above all, a different environment, has given me the
opportunity to step back, look at myself objectively, and assess my
life. For starters, I think I have finally come to a conclusion about
my career choice. For more starters, I found a piece of potential in
me that I never new existed. And for even more starters, I've
realized more or less why I am the way I am and how to change the
things I think need changing. Once again, this is a bit hard to
explain because I don't wish to disclose the details of it all, but
one thing is clear: the reason this is all happening is because of
this study abroad experience.
3) Respect for my parents. Yeah. I
know. Kind of stole that one from the big 10. But I've never before
respected the energy both my parents have put into my life and
theirs. You don't truly understand the sacrifices they make to take
care of you until you realize how hard it is to simply take care of
yourself. More over, you don't understand the pressures of being
completely independent until you become independent yourself. Way
sooner than I think, I am going to be moving out, getting a job,
providing for myself, and hopefully others. It's a scary feeling, and
studying abroad puts this feeling more into perspective than ever.
But it's not just scary. It's exciting. And if our parents can do it,
and can do it well, than so can we. So can I. And like most things
that have been occurring in my life, I'm not so sure this respect
would have cultivated if I hadn't studied abroad.
This seems like an odd way to sum up a
study abroad experience, but I want you to think about it like this.
The classes we take and the grades we get will soon be a memory. The
people we meet and the places we go, will to, unfortunately, become a
memory. But the way we transformed, the way we grew, that is going to
lay the foundation for the rest of our lives. This is why, above all
the great friends I have made, the amazing nights I have spent, and
the crazy countries I have been to, I regard the transformation the
most valuable thing I am taking away. The Kenny who is about to get
on the plane and leave this beautiful city behind isn't sad. No. He
is excited. There is a world to look forward to and a life to live,
and I'm not sure I would have ever seen it this way if I had never
decided to study abroad.
Kenneth Wallach
MoJo Barcelona, Spring '12






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